March 26th Thursday

I am sat on my usual bench in the Body Park, the sun is shining once again the weather has been amazing this week. The seagulls are screeching overhead, I wonder if they’re telling the world to stay indoors so they can have this beautiful space all to themselves ha ha! Maybe they are being paid by the government, everyone else is :-)

I feel a bit depressed today, I tell it to go away and remind myself that I’m loved and well and say “be at peace sweet one”. A bee buzzes in my ear and I feel part of nature, there is a gentle breeze on my face and a strand of hair is tickling my cheek. I am back to being present, to feeling my body on the bench and my feet on the floor grounding me. I start noticing my breath in and out, all I have is this moment and this moment. I listen to the sounds around me, the water in the brook the many birds cheeping, the seagulls are quiet now. People in the distance talking in their gardens, someone banging and I stay in the moment watching as a fly lands on my sleeve.

After some time I ask myself what makes life worth while, but actually all I can think of is where I am sitting in the sun on this bench listening to the sounds around me and it doesn’t seem to matter it just is and I just am.